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Public Diary Of An IAS Aspirant....

edited July 2017 in Miscellaneous
Speak your heart here. vent out,relax and get back to studies. :|
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  • Actually, it's difficult for me to live without goals in life.Once i am goaless in life, i find myself in hell.without confidence and insecure. My mind is rarely in my control. I see myself as a dry fallen leaf which is on the mercy of wind of thoughts. It is goal which enable me to develop some control in me. I don't like company of people and i often feel urge to run away from parties.I like helping people. My heart cry when I see people suffering. But i observe people who are not sensitive enough and don't care about others are more happy.I don't like people in general.I like goals.My worst fear is state of goallessness after UPSC exams over.what can be my next goal.Serving as IAS officer (if i become) can be a goal in itself.Will it be enough to keep my soul and mind at a place.?
    I want to be a novelist because of this fear.Goal to complete a novel which may become bestseller might be as powerful as clearing civil services.I feel like a dead person without goal.No confidence,no security.But once i have goal and obsession to achieve it i get back to life like a virus after entering a body.
  • @Mr_Black you may like this thread. :mrgreen:
  • Ye kooche ye nilaam
    Ghar dilkashi ke
    Ye kooche ye nilaam
    Ghar dilkashi ke
    Ye lutate huye
    Caaravan zindagi ke
    Kahaan hain kahan hain
    Muhafiz khudi ke
    Jinhe naaz hai hind
    Par wo kahaan hai
    Kahaan hain kahaan
    Hain kahaan hain

    Ye purpech galiyaan
    Ye badnaam bazaar
    Ye gumnaam raahi
    Ye sikkon ki jhankaar
    Ye ismat ke saude
    Ye saanson ke taqraar
    Jinhe naaz hai hind
    Par wo kahaan hai
    Kahaan hain kahaan
    Hain kahaan hain

    Ye sadiyon se bekhauf
    Sehmi si galiyaan
    Ye masli huyi adhkhili
    Zard kaliyaan
    Ye bikti huyi khokhli
    Rangraliyaan
    Jinhen naaz hai hind
    Par wo kahaan hain
    Kahaan hain kahaan
    Hain kahaan hain

    Wo ujle darichon mein
    Paayal ki chhan chhan
    Thaki haari saanson
    Pe table ki dhandhan
    Wo ujle darichon mein
    Paayal ki chhan chhan
    Thaki haari saanson
    Pe table ki dhandhan
    Ye berooh kamron me
    Khaansi ki thanthan
    Jinhe naaz hai hind
    Par wo kahaan hai
    Kahaan hain kahaan
    Hain kahaan hain

    Ye phoolon ke gajre
    Ye pikon ke chhinte
    Ye bebaak nazren
    Ye gustaakh fiqre
    Ye dhalke badan aur
    Ye bimar chehre
    Jinhen naaz hai hind
    Par wo kahaan hai
    Kahaan hain kahaan
    Hain kahaan hain

    Yahaan pir bhi aa chuke
    Hain jawaan bhi
    Tanomand bete bhi ha ha
    Abbaa miyaan bhi
    Ye biwi bhi hai
    Ye biwi bhi hai aur
    Behan bhi hai maan bhi
    Jinhe naaz hai hind
    Par wo kahaan hain
    Kahaan hain kahaan
    Hain kahaan hain

    Madad chaahti hai
    Ye hawwa ki beti
    Yashoda ki hamjins
    Radha ki beti
    Madad chaahti hai
    Ye hawwa ki beti
    Yashoda ki hamjins
    Radha ki beti
    Payambar ki ummat
    Jule khan ki beti
    Jinhe naaz hai hind
    Par wo kahaan hain
    Kahaan hain kahaan
    Hain kahaan hain

    Zara mulk ke
    Rahbaron ko bulaao
    Ye kooche ye galiyaan
    Ye manzhar dikhaao
    Jinhe naaz hai hind
    Par unko laao
    Jinhe naaz hai hind
    Par wo kahaan hai
    Kahaan hain kahaan
    Hain kahaan hain....

  • Actually, it's difficult for me to live without goals in life.Once i am goaless in life, i find myself in hell.without confidence and insecure. My mind is rarely in my control. I see myself as a dry fallen leaf which is on the mercy of wind of thoughts. It is goal which enable me to develop some control in me. I don't like company of people and i often feel urge to run away from parties.I like helping people. My heart cry when I see people suffering. But i observe people who are not sensitive enough and don't care about others are more happy.I don't like people in general.I like goals.My worst fear is state of goallessness after UPSC exams over.what can be my next goal.Serving as IAS officer (if i become) can be a goal in itself.Will it be enough to keep my soul and mind at a place.?
    I want to be a novelist because of this fear.Goal to complete a novel which may become bestseller might be as powerful as clearing civil services.I feel like a dead person without goal.No confidence,no security.But once i have goal and obsession to achieve it i get back to life like a virus after entering a body.
    You should have been a footballer.

  • Actually, it's difficult for me to live without goals in life.Once i am goaless in life, i find myself in hell.without confidence and insecure. My mind is rarely in my control. I see myself as a dry fallen leaf which is on the mercy of wind of thoughts. It is goal which enable me to develop some control in me. I don't like company of people and i often feel urge to run away from parties.I like helping people. My heart cry when I see people suffering. But i observe people who are not sensitive enough and don't care about others are more happy.I don't like people in general.I like goals.My worst fear is state of goallessness after UPSC exams over.what can be my next goal.Serving as IAS officer (if i become) can be a goal in itself.Will it be enough to keep my soul and mind at a place.?
    I want to be a novelist because of this fear.Goal to complete a novel which may become bestseller might be as powerful as clearing civil services.I feel like a dead person without goal.No confidence,no security.But once i have goal and obsession to achieve it i get back to life like a virus after entering a body.
    You should have been a footballer.
    Literally hai log yahan pe, literally jamana. :neutral:
  • Thank you @psychopath for creating this thread. Kabhi kabhi mai bhi kuchh likha karunga yahan.
  • Waise mujhe lagta hai ki asli wali feelings to private me hi likhne me nikalti hai
  • Waise mujhe lagta hai ki asli wali feelings to private me hi likhne me nikalti hai
    Private diary bhi maintain karo ek........
  • Waise mujhe lagta hai ki asli wali feelings to private me hi likhne me nikalti hai
    Private diary bhi maintain karo ek........
    Will do.thanks ;)
  • हा मेरे दोस्त
    वही बारिश
    वही बारिश जो आसमान से आती है
    बूंदों मैं गाती है
    पहाड़ों से फिसलती है
    नदियों मैं चलती है
    नेहरों मैं मचलती है
    कुवे पोखर से मिलती है
    खाप्रेलो पर गिरती है
    गलियों मैं फिरती है
    मोड़ पर संभालती है
    फिर आगे निकलती है
    वही बारिश

    ये बारिश अक्सर गीली होती है
    इसे पानी भी कहते है
    उर्दू मैं आप
    मराठी मैं पानी
    तमिळ मैं कन्नी
    कन्नड़ मैं नीर
    बंगला मैं… जोल केह्ते है
    संस्क्रित मैं जिसे वारि नीर जीवन पै अमृत पै अम्बु भी केह्ते है
    ग्रीक मैं इसे aqua pura
    अंग्रेजी मैं इसे water
    फ्रेंच मैं औ’
    और केमिस्ट्री मैं H2O केह्ते है

    ये पानी आँख से ढलता है तो आँसू कहलता है
    लेकिन चेहरे पर चढ़ जाये तो रुबाब बन जाता है
    हां…कोई शर्म से पानी पानी हो जाता है
    और कभी कभी यह पानी सरकारी फ्य्लो मैं अपने कुए समेत चोरी हो जाता है

    पानी तो पानी है पानी जिन्दगानी है
    इसलिए जब रूह की नदी सुखी हो
    और मन का हिरण प्यासा हो
    दीमाग मैं लगी हो आग
    और प्यार की घागर खाली हो

    तब मैं….हमेशा
    ये बारिश नाम का गीला पानी लेने की राय देता हूँ
    मेरी मानिए तो ये बारिश खरिदेये
    सस्ती सुन्दर टिकाऊ बारिश
    सिर्फ 5 हज़ार रुपये मैं
    इस्से कम मैं दे कोई तो चोर की सज़ा वो मेरी
    आपकी जुती सिर पर मेरी
    मेरी बारिश खरीदये
    सस्ती सुन्दर टिकाऊ बारिश
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