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Public Diary Of An IAS Aspirant....

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  • There is something which most of us never try to and that is we do not try or want to know ourselves
    We crave for happiness, comfort, love,life etc.It looks elusive the more we chase the more it becomes like kastoori, believe you me..knowing yourself is no less task ..

    Most of the happy people are sorted in terms of what they are looking from Job, love, life etc...It comes with experience trying different things, having been in different situation and with time knowing exactly what your response will be in different situations

    We plan for everything but for ourselves, we behave very different in complex situation than we think we ought to or we should, try everyday to be little out of your comfort zone and you would not be disappointed

    You may not achieve materialistic goals but you will have much more peace ...



  • Will I be happy? I don't know.
    No matter what I do, I have the incomplete feeling and until I feel myself full, it won't happen.

    I have tried doing different things, tried to alter my routines and goals. It's still the same.

    The point is you are hurt, you are in pain, no matter what you do, you just can't be happy. You need to heal, you need to bide your time for things to fall in place.

    How do you heal?
    Just get the life moving, cry at pitstops and feel the pain, but just keep moving and don't stop.
    It doesn't matter what you do, just do it because you need it. You won't be Happy but you will be moving, moving towards the cure.

    And someday, out of no where, there will be a spark, rekindling and igniting the the brightest joy. You will be happy that day, because you made it so far.

    Life is a journey and happiness is a spark, on the road full of hiccups just to see whether you'll make it that far.

    You will never be always happy, because you desire, and desires are the root cause of suffering. Instead, look for the joy, the joy that fuels the excitement to keep the life moving, with the curiosity about everything.

    Life is a joyful ride, all you get is joy with pseudo momentary happiness.

    Never stop for happiness, just keep moving and you'll enjoy the life.

    It's 2am. I need to sleep.
    #Self acceptance



    “The difference between my darkness and your darkness is that I can look at my own badness in the face and accept its existence while you are busy covering your mirror with a white linen sheet. The difference between my sins and your sins is that when I sin I know I'm sinning while you have actually fallen prey to your own fabricated illusions. I am a siren, a mermaid; I know that I am beautiful while basking on the ocean's waves and I know that I can eat flesh and bones at the bottom of the sea. You are a white witch, a wizard; your spells are manipulations and your cauldron from hell yet you wrap yourself in white and wear a silver wig.”
    ― C. JoyBell C.
  • Dear Magnificent Diary ..

    You have been my companion for quite some time ..I fixated my eyes and had painstakingly labor of devotion towards #goal..You kinda helped me in that I need you until I complete the journey ...

    #Humbled

  • Well, I cleared UPSC, but things haven't changed much.. it only added more to the ones that are already there.. i'm disillusioned.. i thought clearing civils is a panacea... NOPE.. not at all.. everyone thinks am happy.. but am suicidal.. people think am foolish when I say this.. not just me.. they are many around me, undergoing training, who are equally or more depressed and suicidal.. what i mean to say is if you are veterans in the field and think life is being unfair to you.. dont think it will become easier after clearing the exam.. it will stay the same.. all that you will earn are a bunch of sycophants and those who love for what what you have achieved and not you.. if any of you is sad about not clearing the exam.. don't be.. make the most out of your life.. enjoy every moment of it.. happiness is not success.. i'm out of mind and dont know if i'm making any sense
    This is exactly what haunts me everyday. Will i be happy ? Will my life change if i clear the exam? I have no answer.

    Time heals buddy, that is all i can say. Embrace the roughness, Life will be smooth, one day, some day! :)
    She has temporary personal issues she will be ok in few days...tum padhai karo civil service is extremely good.
  • Are matlab abhi tak mera Id active hai :neutral:.. @mod @root ki toh thi request permanently delete ya ban karne ke liye.... Set an example @mods that it is possible to earn an id ban without Trolling and abusive language.
  • Life is an answer...Question we find.
  • correct me if i am wrong,
    Illiterate and poor people are susceptible to jumlebaazi and freebies.
    and number of such people is very large in our country.

    They can be misguided in many ways and therefore is a serious problem in elections.

    What if people who are educated (Say at-least a degree) and people who pay higher taxes had a greater share in voting?

    for example, the vote of a degree holder should be consider 10 times higher than that of a person without a degree.

    What can be the consequences of such a voting reform? I am left wondering.
  • correct me if i am wrong,
    Illiterate and poor people are susceptible to jumlebaazi and freebies.
    and number of such people is very large in our country.

    They can be misguided in many ways and therefore is a serious problem in elections.

    What if people who are educated (Say at-least a degree) and people who pay higher taxes had a greater share in voting?

    for example, the vote of a degree holder should be consider 10 times higher than that of a person without a degree.

    What can be the consequences of such a voting reform? I am left wondering.
    Class Clash!
  • correct me if i am wrong,
    Illiterate and poor people are susceptible to jumlebaazi and freebies.
    and number of such people is very large in our country.

    They can be misguided in many ways and therefore is a serious problem in elections.

    What if people who are educated (Say at-least a degree) and people who pay higher taxes had a greater share in voting?

    for example, the vote of a degree holder should be consider 10 times higher than that of a person without a degree.

    What can be the consequences of such a voting reform? I am left wondering.
    Hmm..vry effective suggestion..but
    1) Garibon ke sath pura relation hi tut jayega minister ka aur desh ka vi..they wl be more vulnerable..

    2) it'll be exactly British Raj type.
  • correct me if i am wrong,
    Illiterate and poor people are susceptible to jumlebaazi and freebies.
    and number of such people is very large in our country.

    They can be misguided in many ways and therefore is a serious problem in elections.

    What if people who are educated (Say at-least a degree) and people who pay higher taxes had a greater share in voting?

    for example, the vote of a degree holder should be consider 10 times higher than that of a person without a degree.

    What can be the consequences of such a voting reform? I am left wondering.
    Hmm..vry effective suggestion..but
    1) Garibon ke sath pura relation hi tut jayega minister ka aur desh ka vi..they wl be more vulnerable..

    2) it'll be exactly British Raj type.
    I second you bhai :)

    But, garibs will be motivated to pursue higher education then?
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