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Dealing with Failure in the UPSC Civil Services Examination

I know it is easy to feel disheartened, anguish over the failure. i felt the very same way(2013 and 2014 attempt) i turned an alcoholic after my second consecutive failure in prelims 2014. but soon realised this is not how i go down. i am here to win and if i don't i will go down fighting not like some jerk blaming xyz for the failure.

the most imp thing you have to realise is "this is not the end of the world". invest your time in other ventures. take up some job, higher education. if all fails open a damn coaching institute.

you have to look for the reasons why you failed. i did and you know what i found out?

1. i used to pick up the books read few paragraphs and then used to daydream about how i will act if i become an IFS/IAS.
2. i never read ncerts thoroughly in my first 2 attempts. yep this was the fact. i started to read a topic then say to myself this is too easy i know all about it, else will read it later. and believe me that later never came.
3.i took too much pressure and made clearing the exam an ego thing for myself. result - tension and frustration turned me into an alcoholic after my second failure.



but somehow i changed my orientation towards upsc and towards my career. this changed everything. the moment i said to myself this is not the end of life i have other avenues too. the study process became easy. it never felt like the burden anymore.

things i did right this time
1. read each ncert 7-10 thrice and 11-12 selected chapters twice at least along with the basic books.
2. gave the exam in a calm manner. fail or pass somehow did not matter. i enjoyed the examination hall, the atmosphere.
3. stopped daydreaming and focused more on reading and thinking than imagining stuff.


once again this is not the end of life. have faith in yourself and the sacrifices made by your loved ones to put you where you are currently. believe in your capabilities.
Man is sometimes extraordinarily, passionately, in love with suffering.
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  • edited October 2015
    Hai... i am one among those who did not qualify.....prelims only....after going through..all odds of leaving job (Gives bigger salary than this UPSC entry level..{there are many like me...i am one among them..}) at the age of 29 and now stood as failure..but after going this... i thought that this is just one exam in which i failed..not in life...and some thing bigger in life is waiting..bigger than UPSC as UPSC is one among the..lacs of bureaucratic systems all over the world...and hope .. this clarity in failure...really brings clarity in following path suited for us...or throws light on our faults/ giving one more chance for regaining what we could not get now...

    all....cheer up..and happily congratulating all those who cleared and congratulating more to those who could not..because they are the lukiest one who were given another chance either to clear this exam..or to clear another big exam...called...life....UPSC is just exam....but we are there to win in life...
  • edited October 2015
    So, I failed to clear the prelims this time, absolutely devastated. In the csat era prelims used to be a cakewalk, I wrote 2 mains and came very close to an interview. This was my 3rd attempt and I wanted it to be my last, I was scoring between 98-102. Now I don't know what to do ahead, I was very well prepared for mains this time, I want to give another attempt but can't sit back for another year. Any other previous mains or interview giver who couldn't clear this time, please share your views.
    A Lannister always pays his debts
  • Third time last time appeared for interview also studied like hell feeling devastated last minute csat change.spoiled everytng who is responsible for this abrubt changes that ass hole fucker modi.ruined everytng im getting mad was getting mim 98 max.104 from various keys
  • was getting 100-108 depending upon different keys

    2nd attempt, gave mains the first time...left job after 2.5 years..

    I am beyond devastated...have no idea what to do ahead..don't even know if i have energy for another attempt...or agar yehi pattern rha to agla attempt ki bhi koi guarantee nahi

    BC minister jisne CSAT hataya...

    Only worthwhile lesson from toppers -> Mains में इतने अंक लाओ कि साक्षात्कार redundant हो जाए
  • left job...........spent all savings....made best possible efforts.........not cleared.........in darkness
  • what will be obc age limit in cse 2016
  • plz tell me friends. .what will be obc age limit in cse 2016
  • Failed pre second time in a row. Was getting 104-112 by various keys. Might have missed by a thin margin. Goes without saying, devastated. Promised to myself will give only 2 attempts. And now I know this exam is not meant for me.
    I am very confused what to do next. Don't even have a proper resume to apply anywhere. Can someone please tell if any link that informs about state PCS exam date approaching? Would be great help. But that's secondary. My primary aim is to get myself a job. Started preparing immediately after passing out from college. I am not sitting jobless at home for sure though.
    Anybody in similar situation? What do you plan to do next? Your thoughts are welcome.
    Sitting, Waiting, Wishing.
  • I work in an oil & gas maharatna for last 2 yrs.......This is my 2nd attempt and could not clear prelims this time. My colleagues and boss know about my prep and keep asking me how is my prep. I am devastated.....I have been the worst performer in my batch and have fought with several seniors who wanted me to lick their boots. I don't know what to do nxt. Either to leave the job to prep for nxt yr or continue in the shithole.

    I just have 1 hope of APFC.....

    wat to do..........?
  • @CrazyDiamond

    sligthly different yet same situation...

    2.5 years workex but gap of 3 years,, ,so almost a fresher..

    Bank exams, SSC - CGL, State services, RBI Grade B..this is what I know.. if others have any other info, please contribute... =((
    Only worthwhile lesson from toppers -> Mains में इतने अंक लाओ कि साक्षात्कार redundant हो जाए
  • @CrazyDiamond
    Same Story !!!
    Applied for MBA though =((
    If you want to leave footprints on sand ... one should not drag the feet
  • I didnt clear prelims. In a similarly sticky situation. I knew I wasn't getting through but the result has left me shattered nevertheless. Prepared with CSAT in mind but they changed the format. And I couldn't keep up. Not my cup of tea it seems. I think I will need a few days to clear my mind. As it is the comparisions with others who got through will start.
  • Failed pre second time in a row. Was getting 104-112 by various keys. Might have missed by a thin margin. Goes without saying, devastated. Promised to myself will give only 2 attempts. And now I know this exam is not meant for me.
    I am very confused what to do next. Don't even have a proper resume to apply anywhere. Can someone please tell if any link that informs about state PCS exam date approaching? Would be great help. But that's secondary. My primary aim is to get myself a job. Started preparing immediately after passing out from college. I am not sitting jobless at home for sure though.
    Anybody in similar situation? What do you plan to do next? Your thoughts are welcome.
    How old are you?
    CSE 2015. Got in.

    CSE 2016. Hopefully, the hallowed All India Services.
  • Mine was 2nd attempt.was expecting 102-205
    Gave mains last year.
    I will give another attempt.
    Presently I am working as IES,don't want to leave job.
    However will take long leaves as soon as my training phase gets over.
  • Mine was 2nd attempt.was expecting 102-205
    Gave mains last year.
    I will give another attempt.
    Presently I am working as IES,don't want to leave job.
    However will take long leaves as soon as my training phase gets over.
  • not selected in prelims 2015
    r no 0466549
    WORK IS WORSHIP
  • Failed twice in a row...30+... This time expected to clear with 100 marks. Now left with last attempt. After 5 year of service and 2 year of gap I find myself in a dilemma as what to do ....should I go for my last attempt or get back to job
  • First attempt. Failed in prelim itself not sure what to do next. Last minute pattern change ruined everything for me. Seniors plz suggest something. :(( :(
  • So I am out.
    this was my fouth attempt. Wrote mains in the csat era. Left no stone unturned for this attempt. Daily insights writing, test series for optional etc bla bla and shit happpened! Given two interviews back to back in state psc. Failed there too. Was preparing full time after my b.tech(2011). This exam has a lot of luck factor involved and failiure here is too hard to digest, moreso for guys under similar condition as me.
    I will be 27 soon with no job, no security, living on my parent's hard earned money. Fèels like shit.
    After all those years of toiling hard now back to square one. Friends settled abroad, some married, ex gf too went abroad for masters. This is a hell of a life. But nevertheless all these things are expected when we choose to plunge into this uncertain BLACKHOLE called upsc.
    Friends list out some options for job avenues(as its a long time for 2016 to come).
  • I work in an oil & gas maharatna for last 2 yrs.......This is my 2nd attempt and could not clear prelims this time. My colleagues and boss know about my prep and keep asking me how is my prep. I am devastated.....I have been the worst performer in my batch and have fought with several seniors who wanted me to lick their boots. I don't know what to do nxt. Either to leave the job to prep for nxt yr or continue in the shithole.

    I just have 1 hope of APFC.....

    wat to do..........?
  • @CrazyDiamond
    exactly same situation bro! Got 105 to 110 from various keys :(( :((
    Looking forward to other exams now SSC state PSC etc. Funnily ( or tragically?)never took them seriously earlier. Government sector seems best bet for now. Study gap would ruin prospects in pvt. sector for me. I would say prepare for Quant, Apti, Eng and get down to giving all kinds of Bank PO/Clerk, Insurance, SSC and subscribe to sarkarinaukri.com updates. They compile data for government sector jobs very well. Any suggestions are welcome mitro!
  • aankho se aaso bi nahi nikal rahe
    papa ke samne aankhe nahi mila paya mai
    mere 1.5 year ki job bi chali gyi
    no life no carrier though it was my 1st attempt csat ne life barbad kar di as my parents are too old , i dont know mere lie kitna sacrifice kiya
    soch raha hun ro lu lekin ansoo nai nikal rahe
  • Left job - 2.5 exp, attempts-2, failed in both prelims. Nearing 27,Don't know what to do next :-w
    :-)
  • First attempt, prepared while working in an MNC for 2 years , was getting ~106. But could not make it..Did not even apply for CAT this year, though have been 95+ %iler thrice (even 99.65 once). Can't leave the job... Don't know what to do, Delhi jaau, ya job k sath self study till prelims, then 4 months k gap k liye leave le k focussed study.... I am in a fix... Any input is welcomed. TIA
    सर झुकाओगे तो पत्थर देवता हो जाएगा
    इतना मत चाहो उसे, वो बेवफ़ा हो जाएगा |

    हम भी दरिया हैं, हमें अपना हुनर मालूम है
    जिस तरफ भी चल पड़ेंगे, रास्ता हो जाएगा ||
  • Failed twice in a row...30+... This time expected to clear with 100 marks. Now left with last attempt. After 5 year of service and 2 year of gap I find myself in a dilemma as what to do ....should I go for my last attempt or get back to job
    no one but only you can decide ur destiny..... jisne paida kiya wo khane ko bhi dega...... bas asfalta se ghabrao mat..... Charon taraf nazar dauda k dekho..... tumse bahut bekar condition me log honge..... say tnx to god and promise him that u will not let it go without fight.....
    agr job bhi karte ho to bhi padh sakte ho.... I m doing same for last 5 years..... still eluded by success.... but I have not lost my hope....
    All the best frnd :)
  • For a change em not devastated...
    Age- almost 24
    Attempt- 2nd , reached interview in previous attempt.
    Backup-- did not give any other exam. .
    Anyways enrolled in ignou ma , will be giving cat most probably and apfc too from next year other exams like state psc , ssc , college entrances.



    Its life... This is it.... As I said to a friend few days ago.... Maximum people who will write mains will not clear it... Maximum who will give interview will not clear that... And even those who get there names in the list.. So many of them will write the exam again.

    So if you can , if you want then you must... You must not give up!! All the best... Em back to studies as I wasn't even borderline this time but surely was devastated on 23rd Aug itself...
    It will be hard coping up.. Yes.. I can not imagine what some might be going through.. Like a friend she gave interview twice and this was her third attempt did not even clear prelims 27 ye old from village ... So all kinds of problem marriage, finance etc...
    We want to bring change in our lives in lives of those near us but if we don't clear things don't change in fact get worse... So my suggestion is to always have a backup ... Because this exam as it did for me last month had been difficult it sends you into such an emptiness with each failure that you can not understand what's happening and more so... Why you only. You know you deserve more and are better but still you are the one sitting out.!
    Its difficult...

    We are all courageous that we have it in ourselves to take risk for what we dream for.. Dreaming is other part but doing , sewking it endlessly even when it gives you to reverse gear... You get old, waste youth years not enjoying , not partying, not facebooking, you dont join those high paying jobs, you don't take other opportunities , facing the looks n queries of friends n families , crying because you have let them down , because you can not take it anymore... The same schedule same books but not the same you... Stress rising with each attempt... No one can experience what you might be going through...
    Its not easy... And we know it....

    But its the courage to continue that counts.. All the very best.. Lets hope our life don't get very very boring and we all achieve what we seek... Love.
  • It was my second attempt. Cleared Pre last year and missed interview call by a narrow margin. Devastated is a small word. Flunked in every other exam like SSC n IBPS just because I whole heartily focused on UPSC. Morever, my parents rebuked me today saying that it was my fault that I could not clear it this time. I studied day and night in libraries still had to face rebukes. This is the worst part. I am not disappointed with my result much but much more disappointed with my parents' rebukes. I want to pursue this journey further but dont know my father will let me do it or not. No other job option seems to be available. DEVASTATED! Reservation system and anti-CSAT people devastated me!
  • edited October 2015
    Friends..its all a game of life..we shouldn't but being humans we will give this exam that much importance..this was my 2nd attempt. Cleared first thanks to CSAT and this time was stuck between 98-103..did an MBA through parents' hard earned money and left job with a serious motivation to pursue my true calling..it took a lot of effort to convince my family on leaving the job but they finally reposed that faith in me.

    Just confused what to do..my heart says if I continue the momentum of preparation 2016 will be the year..but heads screeches don't be a fool, go search for a job and forget this. How does one make a choice..who knows what is the pattern next year..CSAT gone this time, optional goes away next time or something else? This dilemma is a game, and it is really really bad.

  • 1.in CSAT days i was sure of writinig mains the time i walk out of exam hall
    2.brushed up my GK to all i can this time to make sure
    3.NEWS:CSAT removed , dreamed shattered
    4.NEWS : high cutoff

    5.day of result ,doomed :(
  • for ol those now quiting upsc...listn guyz...ny body wanted upsc for pride,sense of accomplishment by serving d nation....but how many civil servants r knwn to us..d country is known by ratan tata or narayan murti...its high time for u guyz to click on refresh button d knoweldge n understendng u guyz got abt dis great nation,d passion n anxiety u passed through will really thelp u to tackle ol odds n do significantly great for nation n society..

    for ol those thinking for one more chance...its time for introspection identify and rectify ur mistakes bounce back as real wariors..(hooks law)...atb

    dats ol for prchng frm my side
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