I have given 4 attempts till now (including this one) and not able to clear it single time. Feeling so much down and depressed and completely clueless about the future. I started to doubting myself whether or not will I be able to clear the exam ever. I am not a bright student (somewhat average) but do work hard. I have been preparing from last 4 year without any coaching in my hometown with absolutely no upsc environment (or alternatively called competitive examination environment) around me. Forum IAS , insights etc were only sources of guidance. Not joined any coaching for geography optional but did completed geography optional (comprehensively). I am completely blank now about my future course of action. Of lately I am thinking of shifting to Delhi to join Optional + GS coaching integrated so that to clear the concepts and get clearer understanding of subject. For prelims per say I have completed all the basic sources (generally recommended) multiple times (with multiple revisions). I am thinking of following two course of action
(1) Shifting to Delhi and join comprehensive coaching classes (integrated + optional)
(2) Preparing for the backup state PSC (which takes 2years for complete cycle) and then come back to prepare alongside the job.
Please guide. I feel like I will never clear the prelims let alone mains.