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The my truth is...from last 8-9 months i was coming here just in hope that one day, that day will come ,that i will finally atleast see or meet that girl from my illusion...all the time trying to find her out.... which is her profile thinking she might want me to atleast find her !!! I asked with so many people here... all the time i was living with and for her only , for these many months !!! i was so much in love with her in my mind...and noone knows what àll things i did in real by thinking that i doing it for my illusionary girls... !!! Life bhi bahut strange hota hai... if i would have come to know this girl from my illusion do not exist 8-9 months ago only then i might have not existed...but when now i come to now, i am saying what the fuck.. what the hell , why this happend to me.... why this girl from my illusion do not exist !!! Instead of being greatful to maula and this girl from my illusion , for this , i act like a fuck !! See this true human behaviour... all the time we humans want more of what we have got !!! Thinking its our prerogative !!! Now i am laughing on my acts only .... lol.... Bahut baar natak aur nakhra i also used to do ...!! By thinking in my mind ki wo hamko pyaar se manaegi .... haha.. thora apna baao badhaengen ... fir roob dikhaengen !!! Par sala aisa kuch real me hua hi nahi ....
Many a times i wrote motivational posts thinking that depressing and distubed post from one random profile is from her...so indirectly i might help her... many times i played sons-songs , thinking i am singing for her and kissing her only .... but ...alas... these were true... she was never here !!! For so long i used to think today if i meet her here then wht will i talk to her .. how can i make her laugh , may be by making her laugh by looking stupid can melt her heart and she might come in front of me by revealing her anonymous mask... but again... it never happened... at the core i just wanted to meet her once if nothing else but in periphery...i wanted what not with her ...!!! She was my life from last many months ...!! Life was full of pain all these months but i felt it was worth living for and with her ... .. till 2-3 months ago i was not trying ver hard to meet her...thinking she is struggling herself and must first support her... but then things started to reveal itself and slowly and slowly i realised many a things about her... and daily a new thing i realised.. and the result was frustration and anger ... but now when everything is revealed...i have no emotions as such... because now i know ... that i teal this girl was not real... or may be once she was, but now she is not !!! Now again i at ground zero , ragging my engines to start my machines again...in hope to meet a new girl from my illusions !!!! I will keep meeting you in my illusions ...!! Thanks for the helps in my illusion !! I wish you always remain as beautiful as i had felt and imagined always in my illusions !!! Bye. Tc. My girl from my illusions... cant even write from my dreams...where we say sometimes that dreams do come true....but illusion never come true !!! And again questiin comes to me is... why me maula..?? Lol...
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T s eliot
Eye for an eye will make while world blind...
So...
Kaha Suna maaf ... ab tum Apne highway... Ham Apne gali
Now i am laughing on my acts only .... lol....
Bahut baar natak aur nakhra i also used to do ...!! By thinking in my mind ki wo hamko pyaar se manaegi .... haha.. thora apna baao badhaengen ... fir roob dikhaengen !!!
Par sala aisa kuch real me hua hi nahi ....
Many a times i wrote motivational posts thinking that depressing and distubed post from one random profile is from her...so indirectly i might help her... many times i played sons-songs , thinking i am singing for her and kissing her only .... but ...alas... these were true... she was never here !!! For so long i used to think today if i meet her here then wht will i talk to her .. how can i make her laugh , may be by making her laugh by looking stupid can melt her heart and she might come in front of me by revealing her anonymous mask... but again... it never happened... at the core i just wanted to meet her once if nothing else but in periphery...i wanted what not with her ...!!! She was my life from last many months ...!! Life was full of pain all these months but i felt it was worth living for and with her ... .. till 2-3 months ago i was not trying ver hard to meet her...thinking she is struggling herself and must first support her... but then things started to reveal itself and slowly and slowly i realised many a things about her... and daily a new thing i realised.. and the result was frustration and anger ... but now when everything is revealed...i have no emotions as such... because now i know ... that i teal this girl was not real... or may be once she was, but now she is not !!!
Now again i at ground zero , ragging my engines to start my machines again...in hope to meet a new girl from my illusions !!!!
I will keep meeting you in my illusions ...!!
Thanks for the helps in my illusion !!
I wish you always remain as beautiful as i had felt and imagined always in my illusions !!!
Bye. Tc.
My girl from my illusions... cant even write from my dreams...where we say sometimes that dreams do come true....but illusion never come true !!!
And again questiin comes to me is... why me maula..?? Lol...
Ban kardo hamko sir... itna to plz kardo ...