I am engineering graduate of 2012 batch from a tier 1 institute. After graduation I worked for a couple of years and entered into civils preparation from 2014. I have appeared for civils 4 times and failed to qualify mains every time.
Finally this year I joined a PSB and decided to take some time off. I was hoping that this break would rejuvenate me. But a few events have transpired that have made me a bit more depressed and distracted me.
During the training period I got attracted to one of my batchmates. She was in my presentation group and we interacted quite a lot. We even went out on a couple of occasions for normal dinner. We have both been allotted different branches but are in the same station. We even met a couple of times after being allocated branches. During all our interactions I have tried to drop her hints of being attracted to her, but have been unable to understand if she really took them. Finally last week I conveyed my feelings to her over watsapp. But her reaction was that she had never thought about me in that manner.
Since then I have had no communication with her, but inside me I want to talk to her. Majority of times I end up fantasizing situations if I would had done things differently. This is impacting my health as I have started to smoke and drink heavily. Also I have been unable to focus on my studies even a single bit.
It would be great if someone here could guide me how to overcome this obsession. Should I meet that girl once and clear up all the things or should I just ignore her. If ignore, then kindly suggest how as well since it is very difficult for me to forget her.