I am 26 Male.
Finished my Engineering by 2015. Attended full time UPSC classes in 2015 - 2016. But didn't study even for a single day. By 2016 had a very bad breakup. Became alcoholic. Lost health.
(I don't blame anyone for this. I don't want to.)
In 2018, it hit me hard that I am wasting my life. Cheating my parents by saying that I am preparing for UPSC. Wasting their hard earned money. So, I went for rehabilitation.
After many unsuccessful attempts, now I am trying to get back into my life free from alcohol and past bad memories.
Now I really want to crack UPSC 2019.
Not for myself. Mainly to create a quality change in the society.
Not a fresher in UPSC as I have attended classes here and there.
If you are a senior/experienced/successful aspirant and if you want to help me, please do.
It will mean a lot.
Going to start my preparation from tomorrow.i.e.Jan 14, 2019.
These are my doubts:
1. Should I start from NCERTs or go straight into standard books? If so, suggest the limited sources.
2. Choosing Sociology optional. Planning to start its preparation too. And finish the optional by March 2019. 2.5 months to go.
3. Planning to combine both Prelims and Mains preparation till March. Finish Mains exclusive portions by March 2019. And dedicate April & May for Prelims preparation alone.
4. Suggest which has to be avoided in preparation and which doesn't work. I am already lagging behind. Just want to reduce the failures and methods which won't work.
I am aware of the reality. With just 4.5 months more for 2019 exam, being a fresher, starting from scratch, both GS & optional to be covered from zero,
I know that I am too greedy. Over Confident. Over ambitious. But,
I have no other choices now. Had wasted too many of my precious years and health.
I need to smash this 2019 attempt. I need to win, not for others but just to prove myself that I am capable. Atleast try to my maximum potential.
If you can help me with this new journey, please do. Will really mean a lot.