I need some advice regarding my career. I have been preparing for Civil Services since mid 2015 after quitting my job(worked close to three years). This year(2017-18) was my second attempt and second interview. I had expectations like everyone else who appeared for interview but shattered again. I have started my masters in my domain already this year. But I do not know why I am unable to find interest in my course. Maybe due to some kind of rewiring in my brain after studying for civil services
. I joined masters because I was devastated after seeing the results last year. I was about to enter a state of clinical depression. I consulted a psychiatrist too and was under medication for sometime during 2017. All these thoughts came to me primarily due to the fear and regret that I have ruined my career by my decision to quit the job.
But now I feel that I should give another try as I have come so far and I also know which area I need improve for mains written(Interview is very dicey I believe). I found that people tried so hard and for so long after seeing the results few days back. I feel as if I am the loser who gave up probably too early and became an escapist.
Since I don’t want to sit idle but also want to give myself a fair chance should I join some coaching institutes? I can teach JEE/NEET students and also polity/economy/geography in GS as think I have good understanding in these subject areas. I have already completed the course for optional and GS so I do not need to have full time preparation.
On the other hand , I can complete my masters and start working in the technical domain(I can but I feel I do not want) and forget about civil services.
Please provide your valuable suggestions and any other path that I can follow.
(Excuse my English)