Hello, I have been into prep since 9 months. Was very anxious about prep. So wasted alot of time then about my apprehensions. This year, i wish to take optional coaching. All the while wenever, i meet my elder sibling that i listen enough of sarcastic tanne that am running away from responsibilities all d while, while keeping myself in the guise of prep. Prev year, i lacked guidance. But still ll gv prelims. Coz i am 91 born n dont want to waste attempt like this n lack exp of exam. However there are few things n fear in my mind.
1. While living in aloof world, devoid of social interactions n society market. Am very poor in basic calculation. A kind of dyscalculia.
2. Whenever i used to go to market, i fail to calculate things, i dont know how much quantity is to measured n how much should i pay for it.
3. once i have been told by my elders, that this much quantity fetches this much veg/ fruit then, i always buy that much quantity only irrespective of more / less is requirement.
Wen it comes to deciding b/w two numbers, this much bill or that int bill, which one should i keep n which one to degrade. I get totally confused.
Even if soneone asks me change hai kya ( in r.s) i fail to see why change is required and calculate it. So i go by direct calculation on my mobile. I dont go into issue of calculating/ giving/ taking change.
I hv been fooled quite a few times by my calculations. And at other times, i purchase v. Less things/ quantity n pay less in order to avoid my mistakes n save myself from monetary loss ( in case if happens)
So sometimes, i think i fear all this to live in delhi. And also wen i did teaching fr few months. They gave me salary to count, i could not count by hands at time. And also had to repeatedly count again n again. I got same mistakes. In calculation. And also wen i was toatalling attendence, i failed miserably in doing that right, on top of that i was being scolded by senior teachers, i messed up my attendence diary with untidyness n wrong calculation.
On 90%of times, i am totally puzzled n confused wat should i decide n if i decide. Am not sure that if i hv decided right? My elders say am not mature as my age
Please help me. How can i improve this and get out of this fear?