This is end of my UPSC story. Started in 2005 with NDA exam. Got very near to selection. Saw name in employment news (old aspirants will understand), but medical out.
Then UPSC from 2010 onward. 4 mains. UPSC has always been my love. It drived me for more than 12 years. Now feeling a huge void. I am in stable job so no worries in that front. But this was my passion. Importantly I did what I can have and now no regrets. Enjoyed every part of it. Being happy as always. I will think about next moves later. Now enjoying my rejection. :-)
India, my country and public service were the motivation and these will guide me further also.
Few of my own lines-
I am human and rightly have limitations,
But never will I lose hope,
Never will I give up.
I may lose uncountable times,
I may fall down at every step,
But I’ll make effort to get up,
I’ll try once again.
Never to forget that,
Hard work will be the only tool,
Belief in myself and god will never fickle,
Nothing will ever stop me from doing good,
My means will justify the ends.
Pinnacles I may attain,
But earth will always be the base,
Respect and humbleness will be the quality,
Feel of thankful privilege for every gift bestowed upon.
Destinations will be achieved with head held high,
But most importantly, never without the smile.
And no advice for anyone from my side. Everyone charts out there own path eventually. Just be happy and all the best for life.
P.S. People who have same story kindly share.
The farther I go, tougher it gets
The tougher it gets, determined I become