It was my third attempt overall and second very-very-serious attempt. Geography optional.
I did everything by the book. Everything. Joined test series at Vajiram and Vision. Consistently scored among the top in both of them. Consistently scored highest marks in Essay mocks at Vision. Prayed regularly to God. Consistently gave 10+ hours everyday all the year round for last 2 years. Was very confident after giving the mains. But in the end couldn't even qualify Mains. After losing the first two attempts (both in mains), I thought I was wrong somewhere. After second attempt, I even left my govt. job to devote whole-heartedly to this preparation. Now, I'm 28, out-of-job and with no prospects of future.
But on the positive side, now I'm pretty damn sure of two things: (point wise)
> UPSC CSE is a PURE LOTTERY. After you cross a certain threshold, it is PURE LUCK.
> There is NO GOD. We've been fed lies, lies and more lies by our ancestors who devised GOD so as to keep the ambitions of the general populace in check. Before writing this post, to relieve myself....
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